# Stephon Rudd ## Posts - [One of These Men Has Not Moved](https://stephonrudd.com/one-of-these-men-has-not-moved/): In July of 2024 Tucker Carlson stood on the stage at the Republican convention and spoke on behalf of Donald Trump. Last month he sat in a barn studio in Maine, talked to Steve Inskeep of NPR, and said that Trump’s own cabinet secretaries should have carried him out of the Oval Office. His words, […] - [We Forgot What a Spiritual Attack Looks Like](https://stephonrudd.com/we-forgot-what-a-spiritual-attack-looks-like/): There was a man at a church I used to attend who could pray the roof off that building. I am not exaggerating. When he got going, grown men would start wiping their faces, and the organ player would find a chord to lay up under him. He knew where to pause. He knew when […] - [He Only Has One Lever](https://stephonrudd.com/he-only-has-one-lever/): The headline landed Thursday and the reaction was exactly what you would expect. Trump regrets his Supreme Court justices. Trump turns on Gorsuch. Trump disowns Barrett. By Thursday night every outlet that has spent 10 years waiting for conservatives to start eating each other had it up with the same framing, and a lot of […] - [Short Pain Long Leverage](https://stephonrudd.com/short-pain-long-leverage/): Canada’s counter-tariffs take effect today. Steel, aluminum, and a list of other American goods, all of it aimed back at us, all of it starting this morning. This is the part everybody warned about. It arrived on schedule. Back up a step. Trade talks with Ottawa collapsed at the end of August. The President answered […] - [The Pump Is Not The President](https://stephonrudd.com/the-pump-is-not-the-president/): A farmer told a reporter this month that at these fuel prices he just cannot survive. I believe him. I have no interest in arguing with a man holding a diesel receipt. Diesel is averaging around $6.52 a gallon. A year ago it was $3.69. It crossed $6 for the first time in history earlier […] - [Why I Pulled Black Water](https://stephonrudd.com/why-i-pulled-black-water/): I have started rewriting Black Water. Not a polish pass, and not the same book behind a new cover. A real rewrite, down to the structure. Here is the honest reason. The story I put in that book was bigger than the book could hold. That is not a complaint about the writing. It is […] - [Talent Is Not Amnesty](https://stephonrudd.com/talent-is-not-amnesty/): I watched a lot of people I usually agree with lose their minds this week over a visa program, and I want to slow it down for a minute. The President sat down with Laura Ingraham and said the country needs H-1B visas because there are certain talents we have to bring in. That was […] - [90 Days Is Not Forever](https://stephonrudd.com/90-days-is-not-forever/): Walk into any grocery store in this country and look at the ground beef. Then look at the price. Then watch the woman in front of you do the math in her head, put the family pack back, and pick up the smaller one. Now drive out to a sale barn in October and watch […] - [The Door She Would Not Open](https://stephonrudd.com/the-door-she-would-not-open/): Nothing happened this morning. I want to say that up front, because I know how this is going to sound by the end. Nothing happened. Nobody would have written it down. I was loading the kids into the car for school. There are 3 boys still in this house and a girl, and the girl […] - [They Came For Greg Laurie Too](https://stephonrudd.com/they-came-for-greg-laurie-too/): I never thought I would be defending Pastor Greg Laurie but some of you are getting completely out of hand and somebody needs to say something. Let me start with the basic facts that a lot of people spreading this story have either not read or are choosing to ignore. Greg Laurie was not charged […] - [Trump Always Knew](https://stephonrudd.com/trump-always-knew/): This final term was never going to look like the first one. I told people years ago – when Trump comes back he is going to do things that are not popular. Things that make even his supporters uncomfortable. Things that look reckless on the surface and calculated underneath. The first term he had to […] - [The Audience You Never Had](https://stephonrudd.com/the-audience-you-never-had/): One of the things I tell men is that they have to be able to do what is right for the family without an audience. That is harder than it sounds. Because everything in us wants acknowledgment. Not applause necessarily. Just someone noticing. Someone saying — I see what you are carrying. I see how […] - [What A Church Without Fear Looks Like](https://stephonrudd.com/what-a-church-without-fear-looks-like/): I want to end this series with something that is not a complaint. Everything I have written in this second half has named something wrong. Fear as a control mechanism. Mistranslation as doctrine. The silencing of honest questions. The weaponization of scripture against the people it was supposed to free. Those things are real and […] - [What Comes Next](https://stephonrudd.com/what-comes-next/): I want to tell you where the Black Water series is going. Not everything. Some of it has to stay in the manuscript until you read it. But enough so you understand that what I built in the first book was a foundation and what comes next is the structure that goes on top of […] - [What I Have Seen In The Church](https://stephonrudd.com/what-i-have-seen-in-the-church/): I want to tell you something that happened in a conversation I had with a minister. I am not going to name him. Not to protect him — to stay focused on the pattern rather than the person, because the pattern is what matters and the pattern is not unique to him. We were discussing […] - [The Moses Nobody Wanted](https://stephonrudd.com/the-moses-nobody-wanted/): Church folks, go ahead and clutch your pearls. I will wait. I am making this comparison anyway because I think it is worth making and I think more people feel it than will say it out loud. Remember Moses? God chose him. Not because the people voted for him. Not because a committee reviewed his […] - [Standing With the Imperfect Man](https://stephonrudd.com/standing-with-the-imperfect-man/): Let me clear something up before anyone twists this into something it is not. I do not like everything Trump does. I do not understand everything Trump does. My car is supposed to run on 87 octane. The manual says 87. I put in 87, and the engine sputters like the Ultimate Warrior cutting a […] - [The Congregation That Learned To Be Silent](https://stephonrudd.com/the-congregation-that-learned-to-be-silent/): It does not happen all at once. Nobody announces that questions are no longer welcome. Nobody posts a sign that says — leave your honest doubts at the door. It happens gradually. Through a series of small corrections. A subtle shaming here. A side comment there. An eyebrow from the pulpit when someone pushes back. […] - [What I Know Now That I Did Not Know In 2018](https://stephonrudd.com/what-i-know-now-that-i-did-not-know-in-2018/): In December of 2018 I pushed a publish button and thought the hard part was over. I had written the book. I had formatted it. I had a cover. I had a title that felt right. I had done the thing that most people who say they want to write a book never actually do […] - [Why A Controlling Church Cannot Afford For You To Ask Questions](https://stephonrudd.com/why-a-controlling-church-cannot-afford-for-you-to-ask-questions/): The question is the thing they are most afraid of. Not because the question is dangerous. Because the answer might be. If the congregation starts asking real questions the people who depend on the congregation not asking real questions have a problem. So the questions have to be managed. Discouraged. Framed as signs of weak […] - [The Quiet War Nobody Is Naming](https://stephonrudd.com/the-quiet-war-nobody-is-naming/): I was watching a commercial the other day. One of those car insurance ones. You know the type. Husband and wife standing in the driveway. She is sharp, decisive, already has the app pulled up and the quote locked in. He is standing there looking confused. Maybe scratching his head. Maybe saying something slightly dumb […] - [How Mistranslation Became Doctrine](https://stephonrudd.com/how-mistranslation-became-doctrine/): Words matter. Especially in translation. When you take a text written in Hebrew or Greek and move it into English something happens in the transition. Sometimes it is clean. The meaning carries across without significant loss. But sometimes — and this is where things get complicated — the translator makes a choice. A theological choice. […] - [The Outlier](https://stephonrudd.com/the-outlier/): Michael Crichton does not fit the pattern. Every other author I have mentioned in this series writes in the Christian supernatural lane. Peretti. LaHaye and Jenkins. Dekker. They share a worldview, a set of spiritual assumptions, a belief in the reality of what most of the literary world treats as metaphor at best. Crichton is […] - [The Most Merciful Thing](https://stephonrudd.com/the-most-merciful-thing/): My grandmother was not an easy woman to watch decline. She had been sharp her whole life. Quick with a Scripture, quicker with an opinion, and completely uninterested in being handled carefully just because she was old. She lived alone longer than anyone thought she should and she did it on purpose. Independence was not […] - [The Gospel They Are Preaching Is Not The One In The Bible](https://stephonrudd.com/the-gospel-they-are-preaching-is-not-the-one-in-the-bible/): I want to be careful here. I want to be precise. I am not talking about the church broadly. I am not making a sweeping indictment of every pastor, every congregation, every tradition. I am talking about something specific that I have seen enough times in enough places that I can no longer call it […] - [When They Came for the Children's Innocence](https://stephonrudd.com/when-they-came-for-the-childrens-innocence/): There is a line that used to be obvious. Children are off limits. Whatever adults choose to do among themselves – whatever content they consume, whatever lifestyle they live, whatever identity they claim – the children are not the audience. They are not the market. They are not the experiment. They are not the canvas. […] - [The Conversation We Stopped Having](https://stephonrudd.com/the-conversation-we-stopped-having/): I remember when a disagreement could end with both people still standing. Not because someone won. Because both people had actually said what they meant and heard what the other person meant and arrived somewhere that felt more complete than where they started. Not always agreement. Sometimes just understanding. The recognition that two people could […] - [Why Christian Fiction Reaches People That Theology Cannot](https://stephonrudd.com/why-christian-fiction-reaches-people-that-theology-cannot/): A sermon requires you to already be in the room. You have to show up. You have to be open to receiving what is being delivered. You have to have enough relationship with the source that you will sit still long enough to hear it. For a lot of people — especially people who have […] - [The Day I Stopped Explaining Myself](https://stephonrudd.com/the-day-i-stopped-explaining-myself/): There was a season in my life where I felt like I owed everybody a reason. Why I believed what I believed. Why I led the way I led. Why I was not more flexible, more open, more willing to meet people in the middle on things God already settled. I was exhausted before noon […] - [What Open Borders Actually Cost](https://stephonrudd.com/what-open-borders-actually-cost/): I want to be careful here because this topic gets deliberately muddied. Being against open border policy is not the same as being against immigrants. It is not the same as being against people who are desperate for a better life. Most conservatives I know have deep respect for the courage it takes to leave […] - [What It Actually Costs To Say I Was Wrong](https://stephonrudd.com/what-it-actually-costs-to-say-i-was-wrong/): I want to talk about the people who can do it. Not the people who say sorry without meaning it. Not the people who offer a qualified admission designed to spread the blame thin enough that they are only technically responsible for a fraction of it. The actual people. The ones who can look at […] - [The Moment I Realized I Had Been Faking Strong](https://stephonrudd.com/the-moment-i-realized-i-had-been-faking-strong/): I used to think being strong meant never letting anyone see the strain. Keep the face neutral. Keep the voice steady. Handle whatever comes and handle it alone. Never ask for help because asking for help meant you were not equipped for the load you were carrying. I wore that version of strength for years. […] - [The Room They Emptied](https://stephonrudd.com/the-room-they-emptied/): There used to be prayer in public schools. I know there are people who will immediately tell me why that is a good thing. Separation of church and state. Religious diversity. Nobody should be forced to pray. I have heard every version of the argument. Here is what I know. The year prayer was removed […] - [The Pride Behind The Position](https://stephonrudd.com/the-pride-behind-the-position/): Being wrong is not the same as being bad. Most people know this intellectually. Almost nobody behaves like they believe it. Watch what happens when someone is confronted with clear evidence that they were mistaken about something. In the rare person who is genuinely secure the response is simple. Oh. I did not know that. […] - [What I Want You To Feel When You Finish Black Water](https://stephonrudd.com/what-i-want-you-to-feel-when-you-finish-black-water/): I want you to put the book down and sit with it for a minute. Not because you are confused. Because something landed and you need a moment before you move on to the next thing. I want there to be a residue. A weight. Something the story left in you that was not there […] - [The Version of You That Got Away](https://stephonrudd.com/the-version-of-you-that-got-away/): There is a version of you that never got built. Not because you were not capable. Because somewhere along the way the right voice at the right moment never showed up. Nobody handed you the blueprint. Nobody pulled you aside and said – this is what a man does, this is how a man thinks, […] - [The Check That Replaced the Father](https://stephonrudd.com/the-check-that-replaced-the-father/): The government did not set out to destroy the Black family. That is probably true. But the effect is the same whether the intent was there or not. For decades welfare policy in this country carried a quiet condition. If a man was present in the home the benefits decreased or disappeared entirely. The math […] - [Why Some People Cannot Hear You No Matter What You Say](https://stephonrudd.com/why-some-people-cannot-hear-you-no-matter-what-you-say/): I spent a long time trying to find the right words. The right tone. The right moment. The right approach that would finally get through to a person who had never been able to hear me no matter how carefully I spoke. I adjusted my delivery. I softened my language. I picked better times. I […] - [Why Men Walk Away From Church](https://stephonrudd.com/why-men-walk-away-from-church/): I want to talk about something that does not get discussed honestly very often. Men are leaving the church. Not all at once. Quietly. One at a time. They stop showing up and eventually nobody notices because the service keeps running and the seats fill with everyone else. The reasons vary. But there is one […] - [They Called It Free Expression](https://stephonrudd.com/they-called-it-free-expression/): Pornography has a rebranding problem. Not because people are starting to see through it. Because the people who profit from it got very good at making it sound like a civil rights issue. Free expression. Sexual liberation. Consenting adults. Who are you to tell someone what they can and cannot watch. That is the argument. […] - [The Emasculation of the American Sitcom](https://stephonrudd.com/the-emasculation-of-the-american-sitcom/): I want to talk about something that has been happening so gradually and so consistently that most people stopped noticing it years ago. Turn on almost any sitcom from the last twenty years. Find the married couple. Watch how they interact. The husband is confused. Lovably incompetent. Well-meaning but perpetually a step behind. He makes […] - [Who I Am Writing For](https://stephonrudd.com/who-i-am-writing-for/): I know exactly who I wrote Black Water for. It is the person who is talented in ways that nobody around them has noticed. Who has gifts that are sitting unused because the noise of everything that went wrong is louder than the signal of everything they were built to do. Who has been told […] - [The Son Who Is Watching Everything](https://stephonrudd.com/the-son-who-is-watching-everything/): Your son is running an experiment on you right now. He does not know that is what he is doing. But he is collecting data every single day. How you talk to his mother. How you handle money when it is tight. How you respond when someone disrespects you in public. How you treat people […] - [Teaching Children to See Themselves as Victims](https://stephonrudd.com/teaching-children-to-see-themselves-as-victims/): Critical Race Theory does not teach history. It teaches identity. Specifically it teaches children to see themselves first and foremost through the lens of racial group membership. White children are taught that they carry inherited guilt for things they did not do. Black children are taught that they are defined by oppression that other people […] - [What You Consume Shapes How You Fight](https://stephonrudd.com/what-you-consume-shapes-how-you-fight/): Nobody argues in a vacuum. The way a person handles conflict is not random. It was learned. Absorbed. Built up over years from watching how the people around them fought, from the media they consumed, from the models of communication they were exposed to before they had the critical distance to evaluate them. Feed a […] - [Strong Men Do Not Scare Good Women](https://stephonrudd.com/strong-men-do-not-scare-good-women/): Somewhere along the way somebody convinced women to be suspicious of a man with a backbone. A man who leads got rebranded as controlling. A man with convictions got rebranded as rigid. A man who holds a standard got rebranded as judgmental. And enough women bought it long enough that some of them started choosing […] - [Nobody Asked the Children](https://stephonrudd.com/nobody-asked-the-children/): I want to ask a simple question. When did we decide that a child – who cannot drive, cannot vote, cannot sign a contract, cannot buy a beer – is old enough to make a permanent irreversible decision about their own body? Because that is exactly what the gender transition movement is asking us to […] - [The Problem Solver and The Point Scorer](https://stephonrudd.com/the-problem-solver-and-the-point-scorer/): I am a problem solver by nature. When something is broken I want to understand it, name it, and find the path to fixing it. That is just how I am wired. When I enter a difficult conversation I am carrying tools. Questions that get to the root. Observations that name what is actually happening. […] - [The Cliffhanger As A Promise](https://stephonrudd.com/the-cliffhanger-as-a-promise/): I end chapters on edges. Not every chapter. But most of them. A question that is not answered. A decision that has been made but whose consequences have not arrived yet. A door that just opened into a room the reader has not seen. Something that makes putting the book down feel like leaving in […] - [Fathers Who Are There But Not There](https://stephonrudd.com/fathers-who-are-there-but-not-there/): Physical presence is not the same as fatherhood. A man can sleep under the same roof as his children every night of their lives and still be completely absent. Still be a stranger they share a last name with. Still be someone they tiptoe around instead of run to. I have watched it. A father […] - [When They Redefined the Word](https://stephonrudd.com/when-they-redefined-the-word/): Marriage has meant one thing for thousands of years across every culture, every religion, and every civilization that ever built something worth preserving. One man. One woman. A covenant that produces children, stabilizes communities, and reflects something God designed before governments existed. Then in the span of about a decade the most powerful institutions in […] - [You Are Not Having An Argument. You Are Being Given A Role.](https://stephonrudd.com/you-are-not-having-an-argument-you-are-being-given-a-role/): Something shifted in me the day I realized that some arguments are not actually arguments. They are scripts. Written before you arrived. With a role already assigned to you that has nothing to do with who you actually are or what you actually said. You walked into a conversation that was already finished. You just […] - [The Man in the Mirror Nobody Talks About](https://stephonrudd.com/the-man-in-the-mirror-nobody-talks-about/): I have met men who were completely different people depending on the room. At church, humble and soft-spoken. At work, sharp and decisive. At home, checked out and unavailable. Around their boys, loud and reckless. Each version carefully adjusted for the audience. It is exhausting to watch. I can only imagine how exhausting it is […] - [The One Thing They Will Never Compromise On](https://stephonrudd.com/the-one-thing-they-will-never-compromise-on/): You can negotiate with the left on almost anything. Tax rates. Climate policy. Immigration numbers. Healthcare premiums. There is always a version of the conversation that sounds like compromise is possible. That sounds like reasonable people can find middle ground. Then you touch abortion and the room changes entirely. Suddenly there is no middle ground. […] - [The Show Must Go On](https://stephonrudd.com/the-show-must-go-on/): I want to talk about reality television for a minute. Not as entertainment. As education. Because whether people realize it or not, these shows have been teaching a generation how to handle conflict. And the lesson is devastating. The lesson is this. When you have a problem with someone you do not sit down and […] - [Building A World That Can Hold A Series](https://stephonrudd.com/building-a-world-that-can-hold-a-series/): The single most important decision a series writer makes is not plot. It is architecture. The plot is what happens. The architecture is the world the plot happens inside. And if the architecture is not built to hold weight — if the rules are not consistent, if the internal logic collapses under pressure, if the […] - [What Nobody Told You About Being the Head](https://stephonrudd.com/what-nobody-told-you-about-being-the-head/): Everybody wants to talk about headship until it is time to actually carry it. Leading a house is not a title. It is not a position that comes with a crown and automatic respect. It is weight. Daily, unglamorous, nobody-is-clapping weight. It means you are the first one accountable when things go wrong. Not the […] - [The Boomerang Effect](https://stephonrudd.com/the-boomerang-effect/): There is a specific kind of conversation that leaves you feeling like you walked into a room you did not recognize by the time you walked out. You went in trying to explain something. Something honest. Something you chose your words for carefully. You kept your tone soft. You removed the edge from your voice […] - [Nobody Is Listening](https://stephonrudd.com/nobody-is-listening/): I noticed something a long time ago in arguments that took me a while to put into words. Most people in a disagreement are not actually listening. They are waiting. There is a difference. Listening means you are taking in what the other person is saying and letting it land before you respond. Waiting means […] - [Trauma and Talent](https://stephonrudd.com/trauma-and-talent/): Every protagonist I have written carries both. Craig Anderson in SEER. Alan Charms in Black Water. Significant gifts. Significant wounds. The two living together in the same person and the wounds making it difficult to access the gifts. That is not a formula I chose consciously. It is a pattern that keeps emerging because I […] - [The Mentor Figure](https://stephonrudd.com/the-mentor-figure/): Richard Kinson shows up in SEER as Craig Anderson’s mentor. He is older. Established. He sees something in Craig that Craig cannot see in himself. He does not push. He illuminates. He holds up a mirror and lets Craig come to his own conclusions about what he is looking at. He is the presence in […] - [Symbolism As Preaching](https://stephonrudd.com/symbolism-as-preaching/): I do not want to preach at my reader. I want to tell them a story that does the preaching for me. There is a significant difference between those two things and the difference is everything when it comes to whether a reader finishes the book or puts it down halfway through. Frank Peretti understood […] - [Why I Write Christian Supernatural Fiction](https://stephonrudd.com/why-i-write-christian-supernatural-fiction/): The genre does not get the respect it deserves. Christian supernatural fiction lives in a strange position in the literary world. Too spiritual for the secular market. Too fantastical for the readers who want straight theology. Not edgy enough for the horror crowd. Not literary enough for the prestige fiction crowd. It exists in a […] - [Camille](https://stephonrudd.com/camille/): Camille is not easy to explain without giving too much away. She exists in the spiritual world of Black Water as an entity with real power and real presence. She is not a background character. She is not a device. She is a force in the story with her own will and her own relationship […] - [Alan Charms](https://stephonrudd.com/alan-charms/): Let me tell you about Alan Charms. He is the lead character of Black Water and the person I will be spending a significant portion of my creative life with. He is not a simple man. He was not designed to be. Alan carries trauma. Real, specific, unresolved trauma that has shaped every decision he […] - [What I Made My Own](https://stephonrudd.com/what-i-made-my-own/): Borrowing from writers you admire is not theft. It is how craft develops. Every writer builds on what came before. Peretti built on C.S. Lewis and Walter Wangerin and the tradition of Christian fantastic literature that preceded him. Dekker built on Peretti. I built on all three. That is not a confession of weakness. It […] - [What I Took From Dekker](https://stephonrudd.com/what-i-took-from-dekker/): Ted Dekker gave me three things I use every time I sit down to write. The first is the double world. Two realities running simultaneously. One modern and grounded. One ancient and elemental. A character caught between them whose experience in one affects what happens in the other. I talked about this earlier in this […] - [What I Took From Peretti](https://stephonrudd.com/what-i-took-from-peretti/): Frank Peretti gave me a specific gift that I have never put down. He showed me how to make the invisible world feel physical. In This Present Darkness the spiritual realm is not abstract. It is not a theological concept floating somewhere above the story. It is a place with texture and weight and consequence. […] - [The Day I Stopped Performing for God](https://stephonrudd.com/the-day-i-stopped-performing-for-god/): For a long time I was very good at being Christian. I knew the language. I knew the posture. I knew what a man of faith was supposed to sound like in a room full of believers and I could deliver it without effort. Hands raised at the right moment. Amen at the right volume. […] - [How SEER Led To Black Water](https://stephonrudd.com/how-seer-led-to-black-water/): SEER was the book I had to write before I could write Black Water. Not because the stories are connected. They are not. Different characters. Different world. Different everything on the surface. But underneath they are connected by the writer who made them. SEER was where I learned what I did not know. Black Water […] - [What Bad Reviews Teach You](https://stephonrudd.com/what-bad-reviews-teach-you/): SEER did not land the way I hoped. The reviews were not kind. Not in the way that means people were cruel — most readers are not cruel, they are just honest in the way that only anonymity allows. The feedback was that the story had problems. Structural problems. Things that a more experienced writer […] - [Why Some Men Never Grow Spiritually](https://stephonrudd.com/why-some-men-never-grow-spiritually/): I have known men who have been saved for twenty years and are still having the same spiritual struggles they had in year one. Same temptations. Same blind spots. Same arguments with God about the same territory He asked them to surrender two decades ago. They know the Word. They attend church. They have the […] - [December 2018](https://stephonrudd.com/december-2018/): I self published SEER in December of 2018. No agent. No traditional publisher. No industry connections pulling strings or opening doors. Just a manuscript I had written, a cover I had designed or commissioned, and a button on a self publishing platform that said publish. I pushed it. The decision to self publish came from […] - [The Season Nobody Posts About](https://stephonrudd.com/the-season-nobody-posts-about/): Nobody announces the valley. The mountaintop gets a post. The breakthrough gets a testimony. The answered prayer gets the praise report and the raised hands and the forty-seven comments from people who were believing with you. And all of that is good and right and worth celebrating. But the valley — the long middle where […] - [Craig Anderson and the Gift He Did Not Want](https://stephonrudd.com/craig-anderson-and-the-gift-he-did-not-want/): The lead character in SEER is a young man named Craig Anderson. Craig is fatherless. His father is gone — out of the picture in the way fathers sometimes leave a space in a young man’s life that nothing else fills cleanly. He has a mentor named Richard Kinson who steps into some of that […] - [In The Blood](https://stephonrudd.com/in-the-blood/): Before SEER there was In the Blood. Same book. Different name. Same story of a young man named Craig Anderson whose dreams were coming to pass in real life and who did not know what to do about it. Same mentor in Richard Kinson helping him understand that what he thought were just dreams were […] - [When the Bible Stops Feeling Like Enough](https://stephonrudd.com/when-the-bible-stops-feeling-like-enough/): There are seasons where the Word feels flat. You open it and read it and close it and feel nothing. The same passages that used to land hard now pass through without friction. The verse that wrecked you two years ago reads like a familiar street sign — you see it, you recognize it, you […] - [Reading As A Writing Education](https://stephonrudd.com/reading-as-a-writing-education/): I never took a writing class. No MFA. No workshop. No mentor who sat across from me with a red pen and a theory about structure. I learned to write the way I learned everything else that mattered — by paying attention to people who were already doing it well and figuring out what they […] - [The Difference Between Knowing God and Knowing About Him](https://stephonrudd.com/the-difference-between-knowing-god-and-knowing-about-him/): There is a man who can tell you everything about God. The attributes. The names. The theological categories. He can walk you through systematic theology with confidence. He knows the arguments. He can defend the faith in a debate and cite chapter and verse without looking it up. His knowledge is real and it took […] - [The Day I Decided To Write](https://stephonrudd.com/the-day-i-decided-to-write/): There was no single lightning bolt moment. It was more like a slow accumulation. Peretti. LaHaye and Jenkins. Dekker. Book after book building something in me that eventually had nowhere to go but out. I had been consuming stories for years and somewhere in that consumption a pressure built up. A need to make something […] - [Two Worlds](https://stephonrudd.com/two-worlds/): What got me about Dekker’s Black was not just the story. It was the structure. Thomas Hunter lived in two worlds simultaneously. The modern world — our world, recognizable and grounded. And an ancient world that felt prehistoric and elemental and completely different in every way. When he was in one world the other was […] - [What Worship Looks Like on a Bad Day](https://stephonrudd.com/what-worship-looks-like-on-a-bad-day/): Most worship is easy when things are going well. The promotion came through. The relationship is good. The health report was clean. The bills are covered. On those Sundays the hands go up without effort and the gratitude is real and the words mean what they sound like. That is worship. It counts. But it […] - [The Cliffhanger That Changed Everything](https://stephonrudd.com/the-cliffhanger-that-changed-everything/): Ted Dekker did something to me at the end of Black that I had never experienced before. He let his main character make the unthinkable choice. Thomas Hunter encountered the black water and he went in. And that was the end of the book. Not a resolution. Not a safe landing. The character I had […] - [Grace Is Not a Hall Pass](https://stephonrudd.com/grace-is-not-a-hall-pass/): Somewhere along the way grace got redefined. It became the theological reason a man does not have to change. The divine permission slip for staying exactly where he is. The comfort that says God loves you as you are and stops there without finishing the sentence — loved as you are, but not left as […] - [Left Behind and the Education of a Future Writer](https://stephonrudd.com/left-behind-and-the-education-of-a-future-writer/): I came to the Left Behind series after Peretti and I never looked back. Twelve books. Twelve full length novels following the same cast of characters through the tribulation period, the rise of the Antichrist, the bowl judgments, the battle of Armageddon, and ultimately the return of Christ. Tim LaHaye and Jerry B. Jenkins built […] - [Five Hundred Pages](https://stephonrudd.com/five-hundred-pages/): I want to talk about what it means to finish a book you did not think you could read. This Present Darkness was five hundred pages. For a teenager who had never voluntarily read anything longer than a school assignment that number was significant. It was a wall. 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